Passion vs Insecurity

I recently read an article at the Launch Coach titled Insecurity Doesn’t Pay the Bills. At the end of his post, the author Dave Navarro asked his readers to “tell me your big insecurity, and how you’re going to respond to it”. I listed out my fears with this comment:

My fears?

That I’m going to be stuck at this stupid ass desk until I die. That I’m going to miss out on the best parts of my kids growing up because I only get to see them for a few hours each night. That my wife and I are going to live our lives exhausted more of the time when we see each other than not.

I’m scared that I’ll put something out there and people will point and laugh. I’m scared that *I* will look back and point and laugh. I’m scared that it will suck and that it will be wrong and that I’ll be everyone’s joke.

I’m scared that I will leave this world without making even a tiny dent in it. That there will be things I should have done and won’t even get around to knowing about them.

I’m scared that I’m going to waste time pursuing material crap even though it only breaks, rusts, or fades away a short time later.

I’m scared I’m not as good as I want to try and believe I am. That I will let my wife and kids down. That I will let my God down.

And I’m REALLY scared that people will find all of this out about me.

But that only answered the part about what my fears were.

So here’s my response to my fears: I’m changing my life. If I get to the end of my life and all of those fears are actual life circumstances, then it’s not going to be from my lack of effort. No more planning. Doing.

The point of this blog is going to be to chronicle those changes and to talk about the things that I am passionate about.

There are so many of you who have been awesome and continue to encourage me, the greatest of who is my wife. To all of you, thank you so much! You don’t know how much life you have breathed in to me.

To the rest of you who think I can’t do this…watch me.